I start 'work' today.
Work outside the home, that is, and
I don't know how I feel about that.
I guess, is the best way to describe my feelings.
Mixed in with the garden variety, "I wonder if I'll be any good at this. I wonder if they'll like me."
is the grief of missing my little guy.
We haven't spent a day apart.
And even though, today is broken into chunks (I'll come home for lunch) it's the loom of the series of days to follow this one. The sadness I've seen in other mother's eyes, creeping into mine, that I'm nervous of.
Today's wiccan power color is Black: the void.
So I shall do that release my grief into the void, step out into the unknown, and get set for adventure.
Let go and let god.
Here's to a great day for us all!!